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 sighs... i kip on rmrin the past...and i really hate my present. i wish i culd go bak and nt make that mistake again. but its the past..i can't do anything....
i really want to
lyk las time when i was in brunei...me summer and i4gt the othr one and we were lyk oways playin and it was kindegarden so obviously it was fun...and i rmr on hallowen day we get to paint the big hallowen poster and it was so fun and then get to light candles and stuff. and they even haf bags for sweets! i miss that school..i miss the past...and then its carpet again and gt mini library and swimming pool. but me and summer moved...then ther goes our seperate ways....
and when i move to kuching thers wher i meet michelle first then eunice and we used to haf lotsa lotssa fun....then i had a stupid idea...but i moved to ong tiang swee but i mean i din reli hte that school (except the well i onli lyk the frens) and i met lyk a lot of them...and i had lotsa frens ther too..and i kip on sayin 'duh' and julia(peter) and felix oso do. =.=''
i can't believe i still had the pics wif me eunice and michelle on my b-day...sighs. *thinks* and now wad do i haf? crap. dats wad im holding now. full of crap. its lyk getting worse since pri.6..and i tot form 1 is going to b better...it did improve a bit....and now...its annoying me..smth bugs me out smth dat i wanna keep...and well dat satisfies me....i wan freinds that i used to haf...but michelle's in international after she moved from australia....and eunice is in 2B and i can't jz tell them to b my frens again...bcz they haf thier own frens...and all i culd to is watch my life washing away from me.....
its nt i hte my friends now....its..just i feel i jz can't take it....smetimes when i jz say smth...smeone doesn't care..but i also can't force them to lyk oways listen to me.....so today i kinda avoided them cz i nid space....well nt that i hte thm....i needeed time to think wad will my life be when i grow up..
wad if i bcme a fashion designer but my brands r nt famous? wad if i bcme a model and im too ugly? wad if i bcme an airsterwardess and i get offended by ppl??
u see...when i needed what i want it only cmes in a short period of time..i wan to escape all this mess..i wan to start a new life..in a new place..i wish i culd change my name and i culd do wadever i wan to do..........but im stuck..in a place..wher im nt satisfied wif...ieven get so sad goin to school for no reason?! its so stupid. i dun get wads up wif me now.
i wish my memories culd go bak wher it shuld be. =( |